Butt booty butt naked...

Dang...maybe I just need to pray...I dunno...I keep coming at God with scarves, shoes, shirts, and sometimes with a whole outfit on...when he clearly sees me as butt booty butt naked...nothing on... so why do I keep coming at him as though he can't see through my outfits...then I have the nerve to spice up the outfits with accessories...fool I am. Why do we always come to God like he can't see through us...some of us pray to God while still lying...My hand is raised. I'm not perfect never claimed to be...I'm a sinner...I admit that. I'm so so trying to get right...quickly giving up the things that mean nothing to me, but I have a hard time giving up the things that it seems as though I can't live without. Like money...I'm plain pitiful broke...If my light bill is $80 and I only made $100 and if I paid my light bill [because I have to pay my light bill] that means that I will only have $20 and if I give God 10% of what I made then I'm giving him 50% of what I have left and of course Imma have to spend that last ten on a necessity like my child's food...ugh...and I have to pay tithes??? Yep...I like to hold on to my money...Say I'm going to hell...already told you that hell is on earth...See the people that claim to pay tithes a lot of them have money...I know from experience...I'm not a cheerful giver, but a prayerful giver....when I do give God my last, I'm quick to remind him and let him know that I'm giving my last and I hope that he can increase what's nothin in my pocket...I know, I know, that's wrong...but God's sees me butt booty butt naked...he knows my heart and my situation...judge me and you shall be judged by the same measure...but I could care less if you judged me...have too much shit in my ears to hear your bullshit...so I don't give two fucks...or three. ugh...like I said, maybe I should pray right now...kinda screwed up right now...but unlike a lot of people...I can admit that I have a problem...be butt booty butt naked and not ashamed...peace